dream

I want to be a 5 am riser. One who wakes with the first slice of sun in the summer and battles the darkness and cold of the winter. One who bounces out of bed without having to stare at the ceiling for fifteen minutes - to a half hour - to an hour. One who does an hour of yoga. One who runs even in downpour. One who writes their dreams. And so I begin, today... I'm sleeping on a yellow hammock in a sunny palm tree place. My stepfather demands I give him all my money. He's red faced, drunk, and emaciated. I am part of a large Thai family and they are all yelling at me. A woman - who is also a man - claims to love me. She is the sister of a close friend of mine, but also someone else I've not met before. He/She attacks me while I'm in the shower and rapes me with both man/lady parts. I do not enjoy it and think of all the ways to escape.