An interview with my wife, Mrs. Felicity Fenton. Tonight FF sits on her couch absorbing the wrath of today. Her belly is nearly 38 pregnant weeks swollen and her bosom is substantially larger than it's ever been. I like to refer to her these days as "jungle tits" or "lardo". Despite her physical hindrances, she appears awake and ready to engage. FF- It's 6pm on the dot. I know you prefer to eat early. What are you planning on doing for dinner?
FF- I don't know. Lately I've been eating lots of chicken hot dogs. Nothing sounds absolutely delicious. Nothing aside from chocolate cake and ice cream, but I can't eat cake every day can I?
FF- Well you could.
FF- Yes, I could. You're right.
FF- As I usually am.
FF- If you say so.
FF- Are you planning on having anyone over for din din?
FF- No. I have little desire to socialize these days. There's not a lot to say. My brain and body are being consumed by the child inside of me. I like the quiet right now.
FF- Yes, I understand. I'm going through the same thing.
FF- I see that.
FF- Do you have any regrets getting yourself into this state?
FF- Absolutely not. I'm enjoying the process. It's been tedious and fretful at times, but I'm fucking excited to meet this child of mine.
FF- What is it about having a child that excites you the most?
FF- I think kids are the most creative people on earth. They say what they want and have no filters. Though I've tried to keep my own kid-like qualities in tact, things like work and routine tend to suck the life out of me - and that's yuckems. I think having a child can stir the pot a bit. She'll add sparkle and spice to the mundane. And lots of poop.
FF- Once the baby comes, do you think you'll still have time to do the things you like to do? Will you still get up early to move your body? Will you still write? Will you still make the things you enjoy making?
FF- It's part of who I am to do those things. They may come in slower increments at first, but that's fine. The brain needs time to ruminate, and pauses and slowness are good for that. I don't see the baby as an obstacle; I see her as inspiration.
FF- And you can always get a kangaroo pouch to pop her into.
FF- That too.
FF- What about labor. What are your thoughts on giving birth? Are you afraid?
FF- I haven't had a lot of exposure to fearful mothers with horrific birth stories who have frightened me into thinking I'm going to explode during labor. I think most of the fear about giving birth comes from stories that are passed around, a truly corrupt medical system, and manipulative media. Women are built to give birth. It's been happening as long as human mammals have been around. Also, I once had a really good Russian OBGYN who told me I would pop babies out with no problem at all. He said something along the lines of "small tree, big fruits." Whatever it was, it was reassuring. I trust my vagina.